I grew up watching the effects that drugs and alcohol have on people. And I knew the dangers all too well. But this did not stop me. It merely postponed it. My addictions came as a means of self-medication at first, just to forget the past ever happened. But this stopped working almost as quickly as I started using. Now when I try to forget all I can do is focus on the pain. Much like my past, my addiction progressed because I was afraid to ask for help; scared to say anything was wrong.