"Insomnia" By Abbie Holden

Here's what keeps her awake at night:
This bed is a sea
endless and without horizon
too much space here
where there used to be a man.

Here's what keeps her awake at night:
The glaring and unforgiving truth
life does not get better
you get better,
and it does not happen idly.

Here's what keeps her awake at night:
A thousand unaccomplished tasks,
due bills and unwashed dishes
dog hair covered floors
adulthood sent away on sabbatical.

Here's what keeps her awake at night:
The promise of one more
I love you, stolen away
greedily and hungrily by another
who spat it on the side of the road.

Here's what keeps her awake at night:
Shaking legs and anxious, roaming hands
racetrack thoughts on their third lap
insomnia bittersweet and sour
that takes as many hours as it gives.