Two Poems by Tony T

November 10, 1993 - Springfield MA

I had begged my mom to go to the concert if I promised my older brother Theodore would bring me. I bought the tickets to the show at the price of $17.50 apiece at the Springfield Civic Center. Me, my brother and a few of his friends piled into a station wagon from Rutland, Vermont, to make the 2.5 hour ride. We get to the city and park. Walking to the show, I spotted a vendor selling an ‘In Utero’ tour t-shirt. I buy one and put it on instantly. We get into the show, realizing we had seats. We made our way to the floor instead. The music started. Deep into the mosh pit we went. The first two bands played and we patiently waited for them to leave the stage. They come on. Crowd is roaring, fists and elbows are flying. Theodore is throwing coins and shoes on stage. The act stops briefly. I proceed to try to jump on stage, but am held back. Mind you I have only one good foot. I try again…

What Scares Me The Most Is 

What scares me the most is
Surviving, dying, cheating, lying, 
Believing, spiders, snakes, murder,
Homicide, accidents, heights,
Lost, found, hell, heaven, 
Not knowing, pretending, being famous,
Isolation, intolerance, monsters
Under my bed, aliens, UFOs, and 
Beings from Outerspace.