Three New Poems by Reeta the Reemix

What I Expected
by Reeta the ReeMix

I had no idea. I couldn't even fathom life on the other side.
Sobriety? I've heard of that.
That's when you quit doing what you couldn't stop doing before.
Drinking, smoking, using substances 
To escape reality and avoid the pains of life.
I used to say, "That's for quitters, and I never give up!"
Now, on the other hand
Or the other side of the coin
"Heads"
Is recovery
Not at all what I expected
Well, I also had no clue.
I know when a person is healing after being broken
Like an arm or leg, or surgery
Recovery is the slow process of getting better
Recovery also means healing my distorted perception of life
After 18 months
It's way better than
What I expected

It Wasn't the Right Time 
by Reeta the ReeMix

Is there ever really a "right" time?
There can definitely be a wrong time.
But isn't time relative?
Or an illusion?
I think time is just a way for people to differentiate
What has happened already
From what has not happened yet
But there is no time like the present
It only exists in this moment
So... if it wasn't the right time
That means anytime but now
Because "Now" is the best time

Where I'm Headed 
The answer to this question may change
Depending on how I'm feeling at the moment
Who’s asking who, and what is the purpose of asking

If I'm asking myself
The purpose is awareness
With the intention to process
My feelings, directions
Or the necessary actions that I must take

If someone else is asking
They may be offering help
Curious because they admire something
Or just being nosy