Showtime!

(Some shots from our pre-show rehearsal. Click on the photos to advance through them.)

On Saturday, our Writers for Recovery group gave a reading at Burlington's ECHO Center for Recovery Day Burlington, 2014. To say the reading was fantastic does not do it justice. Everyone stepped up to the mic with confidence and delivered their readings like pros. They stories we told were powerful--because they were as beautifully written as they were true to life. The crowd responded with visible emotion (and a standing O), and we got many compliments afterward. We even made the news on WCAX, with Patty and John speaking to reporter Melissa Howell.

We have gone so far in just a few short months that it's hard to believe. But we aren't finished yet. We'll be back at the Turning Point next Wednesday at 5:30 for Workshop. And if you are in recovery of have a family member working to overcome addiction, please do come and join us. 

 

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"To a Woman Far Away on Match.com" by John Gower

I read where you like warm climates. Yes, that's it. You and I will be crazy in love. We'll love each other so much we'll play board games and cards. We'll plant tomatoes and save for a holiday in Spain. We'll teach each other Spanish and we'll call each other just to talk about the seasonings that we're thinking of using for dinner. I'll have a picture of your naked foot on our front door and perhaps on a key chain too. I'll make up new poems every night and we'll eat them right before sex. I'll have parties in your honor and invite all the neighbors.You'll stand in the driveway and sing the love songs that you make up on your way home from work. Once a month we'll tango around the block and sleep in the yard. We'll not say a word to one another for a whole day, just so we'll miss the sound of I love you.

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"Why I Like to Garden" by John Gower

A hibiscus grows in my garden

pale delicate crepe-paper yellow

dark blood-red center

 

this morning like last year

all my puttering stopped

when a lone flower appeared

 

there in this flower

my mother speaks

Aloha, aloha, she says

like she did when she was happy

 

drawn to her gaze

our good years settle

like sun

upon her yellow petals

 

unspoken love almost forgotten

comes back alive in her red

 

she is resurrected

and I am

forgiven

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"And Then I Knew" by Jack Gower

It's dark

Not pitch black

more like fuzzy grey. Television static snow

This fog cloud of fuzz has a stench to it; Vinegar.

We make a turn, a bit too whimsically, and I thump my head.

Small holes of subtle moonlight seep in, stifled by the artificial neons nearby

Brisk air rushes my face as we accelerate. 

I try to reach out to steady myself. clank. nothing.

"Ah, DAMN it!" the sobering realization of restraints.

And that's when I knew I was en route to jail. not again.

"God I have to piss"

Now my own contributing addition amongst the, already, sulfuric ambiance.

Just as the back door exit of my paddy wagon escort's doors fly open and I'm saturated in the blinding fluorescence

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Week 10 Is Just Awesome!
Special Guest Author Ellen Lesser

Special Guest Author Ellen Lesser

We had a full house of writers for last night for another incredible evening of Writers for Recovery. It featured special guest Ellen Lesser, author and teacher extraordinaire from Vermont College of Fine Arts.

Ellen talked about the nature of writing in her life, and how she has used it as a tool of recovery since her childhood. Then she knocked our socks off with a reading from one of her recent short stories and responded generously to questions from the group. 

We finished the night with a writing prompt, writing for seven minutes on the topic "What I Have Recovered." You are welcome to do this too, and send your response to writersforrecovery@icloud.com for inclusion on this blog.

Finally, we made the decision that even though our ten weeks are up, we aren't ready to stop! We won't meet next Wednesday, August 27. But we will be back on September 3, and will keep the group going until further notice. So please, come join us!

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"I Am From" by Stan Worthley

I am from the small towns of New England, where every one knows what you had for dinner

Where the sea was once a way of life and a badge of pride, and the resting place of lost loved ones

I am from the back country roads we drove with no destination in mind,

Where the leaves on a cool fall day danced to the sounds of small block v8's thundering by

And the rubber left at stop signs was the only proof we were there

I am from the place of memories both good and bad

Where I had bowed as a peasant and stood as a king,

Where the greatest of hardships showed what would become the greatest of strengths 

I know where I am from but if you ask I do not know where I'm going 

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Three Poems by Leslie Bonnette

Ode to Franny-O’s

 

You pass

the time

wth me

some sweet

nights

 

I sit

with old

deli managers

day laborers

done-in actresses

doting pundits

 

You serve

me up

the usual

cool blue

valium drink

it stings

and tickles

my throat

 

Down in this

dark

world of

would-have-beens

and could-bes

is me

 

One for

if only

 

Two for

Why not

 

Three for

Whatever

 

My Father’s Hands

 

My father wasn't like Mr. Wonson

With his soft, flabby lips

And protruding belly.

 

My father was tall and lean and handsome

And looked like he could be somebody famous

“Like he stepped out of a bandbox,” my mother said

Only I didn't know anything about bandboxes.

 

He had the hands of an artist

Strong and gentle

I'd watch them

When he drew cartoons for me.

 

My father wasn't like Mr. Wonson

Who used to pull the drapes

And try to kiss me.

 

My father bought me jewelry and fancy dresses

Took me to dinner and dancing

He'd put my tiny feet on his and we'd whirl across the floor

Me, drunk on his cologne, he on his martinis.

 

My father wasn't like Mr. Lindars

Who asked the little girls into his garage

And had them pull their pants down.

 

My father picked me up every Sunday

And we'd go visiting

I'd sit quietly in my scratchy dress

While the grown ups laughed and ate.

 

He'd carry me drowsy to the car

We'd soar down silent parkways

In the blackness he'd pull me close.

 

My father's hands didn't seem like an artist's then and

I wished he'd leave them on the steering wheel

And me on my side of the car.

 

My father wasn't like Mr. Sarlin

The kind teacher who saw trouble in my eyes

And shed a tear when he read my poem.

 

My father cried when he had too much to drink

He told me he didn't know how to be a father

And I believed him.

 

Who was this stinking man

Who had the neighbors keep watch on me

Always needing to know where I was  

He said he'd show me just who was boss.

 

My father would have men with axe handles

Follow me and call my name

And then disappear.

 

These nameless, faceless men always seemed to know

Just where I'd be and 

Just what jewelry I'd be wearing.

I couldn't hide from my father's hands.

 

No, my father wasn't like Mr. Wonson

Who would pull the drapes and try to kiss me

Or Mr. Lindars hiding in his garage

 

My father was a silent, insidious stalker

Who seduced the little girl who thought he was God.

 

Suffocation

 

Reflections of

needles

in the diamonds

stab

and gleam

in your eyes

 

Moods and

shadows

in your smile

hide

and lurk

in our days

 

Fangs of anger

borne

of tears

ravage

a heart light

already dim

 

Cries of rage

in a desperate dream

mourn

for the light

of days past

that burned

in a vacuum. 

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Writers for Recovery Week 7

We had a very special night at Writers for Recovery, courtesy of Vermont Poet Laureate Sydney Lea. Speaking in his quiet, unassuming baritone, Syd shared the impact his addiction to alcohol has had on his life, and told his story of recovery. In his talk and the poetry reading that followed, he conjured whole other worlds, populated by Passamaquoddy Indians, horse loggers and river runners, addicted convicts, Vermont hill farmers, and most powerfully, himself. It was a night for eloquence and candor, and one worth remembering.

Inspired by Syd, we tried some poetry of our own, with the usual remarkable result. We also welcomed two new writers, who I sincerely hope will stick around.

The prompt for last evening was to take 10 minutes to write a poem with the first line "I Am From." This exercise has become very popular, and for good reason. It's a chance to talk about where you came from, the family, friends, and places that surrounded you, and how you came to be who you are. Here's a great example, from poet George Ella Lyon.

I will be on vacation next week, so Bess will be your workshop leader. And please, send some work to writersforrecovery@icloud.com so I can post it on the blog. Thanks!

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Writers for Recovery Week 6

We really rocked on Week 6. Dan Bolles of Seven Days stopped by to talk with us about his life as a music journalist. We welcomed some wonderful new writers to the group. And we filled in the blank in the prompt "When I listen to ___________, this is what happens" with the name of an artist or band, and kept writing. The results included amazing personal reflections on musicians from Nina Simone to the Afghan Whigs. We'd love to read your take on the prompt, so write for seven minutes and send it to writersforrecovery@icloud.com.

For next week's class, write for 10 minutes on the following: "A poem to my addiction." Special guest next time will be Vermont Poet Laureate Sydney Lea. See you then!

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"This Is All I Remember From That Night" by Leslie Bonnette

Creeping down Shelburne road in my fancy BMW, must’ve been 2 or 2:30 in the morning, music blasting, I was lucky to have made it home without being stopped.  That three mile stretch home from Franny’s I could do with my eyes closed. The next thing I remember was my keys flying out of my hand. “GodDAMN it,” I bitched.  It was then I noticed the blackness of the night – no moon, not a star in the sky, I felt like a bird in a cage under a sheet at night. OK, I try to focus my spinning brain ~ I’ll have a cigarette and cool down. “Jesus Christ,” I thought to myself; “where is my lighter?” Fumbling in my pockets, I come up with nothing.  It must be in the car.

It was a beautiful night, and my keys couldn’t be too far. I stumble to my car – “SHIT,” it’s locked. Now I’m fuming; no cigarette, no lighter. I decide to crawl on my belly; arms outstretched doing the “snow-angel.” No keys.  I begin at the car reaching as far as I could to either side of me, inching slowly up the trail of the missing keys. The keys couldn’t have just disappeared; I heard them hit the ground. They are heavy keys complete with a bronze medallion of sorts with the Serenity Prayer some shrink gave me years ago. I should be able to find them.

Slithering on my belly, my fingers clawing into the grass for what seemed like hours -- nothing. Desperation was beginning to well inside and I began to feel panicked.  My husband wasn’t home (thank God), which was precisely the reason I had felt privileged to close the bar.

But what the fuck was I going to do? Scratching and groveling in the wet grass, lighter- and cigarette-less, I cursed.  Myself first, for being so drunk; my inability to figure out why I didn’t have – and couldn’t find – my keys.  Then God for making it so dark, then myself again for taking me to the limit of my alcohol consumption – again.  And again. And again. Then myself again for being me.

So I reasoned, with whatever neurons were still actively connecting, that I could stand up, (that is if I were able), find the porch railing and, holding on, steady myself enough to make it onto the deck, where there was a chair I could sleep in.

The next thing I knew the birds began to chirp and I perceived a piercing lightness through my eyelids, afraid to open them. When I did, I went to the edge of the porch and, there, within a foot of where my arms must’ve reached, were my keys, gleaming in the sunrise.

That’s when I knew I’d crossed the line.

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Writing on From Another Story's First Sentence, by Gavin Howley

Days before she met the novelist, Cora went to the library and brought home a stack of plastic-sleeved hardcovers with one-word titles like Heirloom and Ruffian andSeductress. She knew she needed to do a little research for her project, for it to be carried out successfully.  The novelist was appearing at the local Barnes and Noble Thursday night at 7.  Cora knew she had to be absolutely ready.  She was already pretty sure she had all the supplies ready to go.  They could be inconspicuously placed in her jacket, which she would certainly need in this chilly fall weather.  The sleazy low-rent romance novels from the library she knew would be required reading, unfortunately.  The novelist, Scarlett Lovewell, almost certainly a pen name, and a horrible one at that, even for this genre, had caused Cora enough pain and was going to have to pay.  This was going to be a very memorable scene, when all was said and done.  Cora’s extensive knowledge of anatomy was going to allow her to hit many of the main arteries.  Bright red blood.  Not the darker, slower moving deoxygenated blood returning in the veins.  Nope, she was after the high-pressure system, and if the store re-opened at all it would only be after an extensive cleaning of the walls and likely ceiling as well.

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Writers for Recovery Week 5
Gary Lee Miller photo

Gary Lee Miller photo

We had a truly incredible session last Wednesday, with readings that ran the gamut from intense to hilarious. Visitors from the Burlington Free Press gathered materials and took photos for a Sunday arts feature that will appear on August 3. Best of all, it will include some of the work read by students for the Week 5 session!

Next Week, Dan Bolles of Seven Days will visit us to talk about his work and a writer and editor. He will not be writing about the group for Seven Days.

The prompt for Week 5 was "What the ghost said when it whispered in my ear." Seven minutes. Go!

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"The Person Who Is My Secret Weapon" — by Gavin Howley

The person who is my secret weapon is actually I think part of myself – someone that doesn’t get to come out that often. I feel that I have ambled along through life never really taking any chances or truly applying myself.  I managed to get a BA degree but it was kinda just something that seemed like the easiest path. I’d like to restart my life after high school and realize sooner that I can’t just mosey along through my own life. This secret weapon is part of me that does come out on occasion, when I really put in some effort or take a risk of some kind. He has made a few appearances over the years but has been dormant for quite some time now.

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Writers for Recovery Week 4 Prompt
Watercolor by Gary Lee Miller

Watercolor by Gary Lee Miller

This week, we were joined by special guests Jack Maroney, Jim DiReda, and Hank Rossi, who talked with us about the East Side of Addiction project.

The prompt for the week was "The person who is my secret weapon." If you'd like to try it, write for seven minutes and send the results to writersforrecovery@icloud.com.

Be sure to visit the group this Wednesday evening, starting at 5:30, when we'll visit with special guest Dan Bolles, Music Editor for Seven Days.

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Writers for Recovery Week 3 Prompt
Copyright 2014 Gary Lee Miller

Copyright 2014 Gary Lee Miller

First sentences are doors to worlds. S0 says author Ursula K. LeGuin. For this week's prompt, choose one of these first sentences from Best American Short Stories 2013 and write what comes next. Spend only ten minutes. Don't think. Don't edit. Just write. Send the results to writersforrecovery@icloud.com and we will publish them. For a bonus prompt, write for seven minutes on the following: "This is all I can remember from that night."

Here are the first sentences: 

I’d been out of the conservatory for about a year when my Uncle Raúl died.

                 — Daniel Alarcón, from “The Provincials”

 

As a teenager, her junior year, her favorite trick involved riding in cars with at least two other girls.

                —Charles Baxter, from “Bravery”

 

When I was in college in Eugene I had a girlfriend named Nora Vardon.

                  —Michael Byers, from “Malaria”

 

Years later, you would wonder if it hadn’t been for your brother, would you have done it?

                  —Junot Díaz, from “Miss Lora”

 

Bob was in the dark.

                  —Karl Taro Greenfeld, from “Horned Men”

 

Goodwin Lee and his brother, Morehouse, had bought it at an auction, for nothing.

                  —Gish Jen, from “The Third Dumpster”

 

Lambright had surprised everyone by offering to drive his son’s girlfriend home.

                  —Bret Anthony Johnston, from “Encounters with Unexpected Animals”

 

Sandra holds her eldest child, S.P., tightly on her lap while she listens to her sister, who is telling about her husband, a heart surgeon. 

                  —Sheila Kohler, from “Magic Man”

 

Day after day I went through the paternal motions, testing my son while he tested me, trying to teach him not only to do what I said, which seems like a given, but also to see and taste the world in certain ways, with an ideal in mind, a purified version of the best way to live reduced to a rudimentary five-year-pld version: good eye contact with others, a sustained gaze, not just looking, but giving an indication of having seen, —a head nod—and maintained long enough to show respect and not too much fear.

                  —David Means, from “The Chair”

 

The small boy Samuel wakes in the dark.

                   —Steven Millhauser, from “A Voice in the Night”

 

For the third time in three years, they talked about what would be a suitable birthday present for her deranged son.

                  — Lorrie Moore, from “Referential”

 

This is a slow train anyway, and it has slowed some more for the curve.

Alice Munro, from “Train”

 

Tired of telling her own story at A.A., Hil was trying trying to tell the story of her neighbor.

Antonya Nelson, from “Chapter Two”

 

There is a picture of me standing with my cousin Nemecia in the bean field.

Kirsten Valdez Quade, from “Nemecia.”

 

Days before she met the novelist, Cora went to the library and brought home a stack of plastic-sleeved hardcovers with one-word titles like Heirloom and Ruffian and Seductress.

Suzanne Rivecca, from “Philanthropy.”

 

September 3rd

Having just turned forty, have resolved to embark on grand project of writing every day in this new black book just got at OfficeMax.

                  —George Saunders, from “The Semplica-Girl Diaries”

 

Sunday 1 January

Fair and very cold.

                  —Jim Shepard, from “The World to Come”

 

Her students are the devotees and tenders of machines.

                  —Elizabeth Tallent, from “The Wilderness”

 

The news from Spain is terrible.

                  —Joan Wickersham, from “The Tunnel, or The News from Spain”

 

There were cats in the barn.

                  —Callan Wink, from “The Bretharians”

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Writers for Recovery Week 2 Prompt

Copyright Gary Lee Miller 2014

Copyright Gary Lee Miller 2014

The main point of the prompts is to jump right in. Don’t edit yourself. Don’t worry if it’s not good enough. There is no way to do this wrong.

All you need to do is write for seven minutes on the following topic:

“If I were in charge...”

If you want, send your writing to us, and we’ll share it online! You can use your own name, use a pseudonym, or even be anonymous if you want.

Send your writing to writersforrecovery@icloud.com

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Writers for Recovery Week 1 Prompt

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The main point of the prompts is to jump right in. Don’t edit yourself. Don’t worry if it’s not good enough. There is no way to do this wrong.

All you need to do is write for seven minutes on the following topic:

“Dear World: Here’s what you should know about the real me.”

If you want, send your writing to us, and we’ll share it online! You can use your own name, use a pseudonym, or even be anonymous if you want.

Send your writing to writersforrecovery@icloud.com

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