"This is What My Addiction Couldn't Take" by Caitlin Ferland

This is what my addiction couldn't take away from me. My heartbeat. It's about the only thing it didn't take. Even when I wanted it to stop beating, it continued on. I came so close to dying so many times but didn't. Grand mal seizures, gastric obstructions, my mother unable to wake me, my family finding me and thinking I was dead. Even when I was ready to kill myself. There is one reason I am alive, and that is my higher power. I pray that I never forget that my heartbeat is the only thing that addiction didn't take from me. To pick up a drink or a drug means death for me, period.

Gary MillerComment