"There Were So Many Times When" by Helen Myhre

There Were So Many Times When

There were so many times when I’ve wanted to give up, throw in the towel, and be done.
Not done with life, but done with the life I was living.
Done with being laughed at, being left out, and being forgotten. Done with being made to feel less than, not good enough, and worthless. Done with being the gum on the bottom of the shoe.
I tried to forget by moving the emotional pain to physical pain. I tried to forget by drinking the thoughts away. I tried to forget by numbing the pain away, but none of these things worked.
I must tear down the walls to feel the emotional pain.
Hear the deafening silence.
Turn the walls invisible.
Turn the silence into peace.